So it happened!! I failed my challenge to blog every day for 30 days! Or did I? One of the things I’d like to share is the notion that we somehow need to be perfect at everything we do!! The house being clean from top to bottom, kids’ lunches always having all 4 food groups, being perfect at your job every day! NEWSFLASH: not right to expect that of ourselves every single day. I think if we “show up” and do the best we can every day, it should be enough. After all the only person we are competing with is ourselves. I say we cut ourselves some slack and embrace our imperfections as our new perfect for me…not any one else. I promise you will be happier in the end!
Incidentally, I did it on purpose to not post a blog yesterday so that I can share my thoughts with you about it today. Be happy and laughing. How ever you decide to spend your day today, know that it’s not coming back, so enjoy every moment…with a smile!
I’m up north on a mini getaway looking for rest and relaxation. There has to be something said about sleeping in complete darkness. No blinking lights from the outside world, no neon green lights from the alarm clock on your bedside table reminding you that you need to get up in exactly 2 hours and 15 min, no flashing light from your smartphone beckoning you to see what the notification is about, no spending time on facebook, pintrest, instagram or twitter. It’s just you and nature. I slept like a baby. I enjoyed the deepest sleep I have had in years and I woke up with a smile on my face. I am reminded of a poem my son wrote in 4th grade, a haiku that has stayed with me still even though it is 4 years later:
Deep in the mountains
There is a wind in the air
Soon, there is silence
I feel peaceful, calm and happy…
Alarm clock goes off and up I go. Lunches to make, kids to wake up, school forms to sign. Hustle and bustle to get the kids off to school. I close the door, make myself a cup of green tea and sit back and take my first deep breath of the day! It’s Friday and the weekend is all mine! I’ve made plans to go up north. Quiet. Stillness. Peace. A place to think and be able to hear my thoughts speak back to me. Walks in the woods. The wind blowing gently telling me to calm down from the scurry of the week. Time to take a step back and look at myself from the outside in. What thoughts are meant to come out? What advice do I need to hear from nature. Mother Earth has so much to share. Sometimes I am ready to receive her guidance sometimes I want to wallow in my sadness. What will it be this weekend? I have been blessed with the gift of nature abound and ready to give me all. As I drive on the highway toward the north, I notice I take my first deep breath and sigh with a peaceful sort of happy. Yes! This weekend is much needed. What do I need to hear? What advice do I need to be shown to me? I take a walk in the dark by the light of the moon that shines her light in front of me telling me that all will be known when the time is right and only a little at a time. I go to bed and close my eyes, happy.
What do you like about rainy days? I love the quiet so that I can hear the pitter-patter of raindrops on the window and stare at the intricate patterns that form. It is the promise that tulips will start to show their buds through the earth and grace us with their beautiful petals. My trees in the backyard have already started to bud and I’m so excited to look out every day and appreciate every stage of its growth or sitting on my covered porch with a cup of tea and a blanket and lose myself in my thoughts and dreams.
Yes, I love the rain and it makes me so happy!
Happy? It’s a conscious effort every single day! You wake up and get out of bed and the first thought you have can set the tone for the rest of your day! Waking up everyday is a blessing all on its own and a thought we can get into another day. 6 am and the alarm goes off what is the first thought that goes through your mind? For many it could be:
“Ohhhh, work…. I can’t stand my job!”
“Bills! Bills are due today!! How am I going to come up with the money??”
“10 more minutes!! Lunches to make…should have made them last night!”
I’m getting tired just typing that out! Did you know it takes twice as much energy to think negative thoughts than positive ones?? Becoming stressed out about everything you need to get done today imbues so much negativity into your brain and really set the theme you’re going to be experiencing all day!! It becomes a domino effect. You wake up late, you miss your train or you get stuck in traffic, you spill your coffee on yourself at work, you realize you forgot your lunch in the fridge, you have a meeting you forgot to prepare for. Let’s rewind back to last night!!
You made yourself a cup of camomile tea, you sat down with your favourite journal and pen and put your thoughts down about what your day is going to be like tomorrow. Meetings you might have, things you’d like to get done. You praise yourself for having made the kids’ lunches so it’s one less thing to worry about in the morning. I wish my every evening was like that but it’s NOT! We’re aiming for doing our best every single day not perfection. I must say however, on days that I meditate, journal, prepare the night before, going to bed and visualize what I want to manifest in my life, the next day runs smoothly, calmly and just plain HAPPY!
I’m in bed just about to fall asleep and I remember that I almost forgot to do my daily blog post!! ARGH!! Got out of bed and trying to find something totally inspiring to say at 10:25pm while I’m yawning bigger than a lion. I spent the day out on various appointments which lasted until 9pm when I got home! Inspiring? Maybe tomorrow…but I will leave you with this:
So, I’ll go easy on myself for almost forgetting and instead be happy with myself that I tried… Good night
Today, I had the most awesome blessing of enjoying a day filled with silence. Oprah once said: “Alone time is when I distance myself from the voices of the world so I can hear my own”. The house was so quiet I could hear even the most subtle creak or drip. It was a prime opportunity to spend the day in meditation and self-reflection. I have never (until today) spent a better part of the day in silence. I feel so relaxed and calm but most of all I have come to realize a better sense of direction for my life which not too long ago was at a crossroads. I enjoyed beautiful visions during meditation and was compelled to create afterward. I have included a pic of that creation. Looking at it a little while later, I realize it is my life; a life more serene, more alive and one that is coming out of the woods, confident in the dreams I am compelled to pursue. A perfect day… I feel so happy!
What makes you happy? Share your thoughts 🙂